We Aussie’s have some kind of crazy fear of success, of greatness and of recognition. We fight for the underdog and back the losing team – which can be good. Except we so often take the piss out of the winner and we cut down those tall poppies as fast as they can grow.

Is that why I am afraid to succeed?

I am proud of where I am – I have a business that supports my family financially. I started only 3 years ago selling shorts at my local markets and now I have Tara Gentile, Megan Auman and Jennifer Lee all flying out to Australia on my request to attend a brand new event The Artful Business Conference.

But I want more. . .

I use the busy excuse all the time – its rubbish! I have been unwell the last few weeks – true – but I have also spent plenty of time drinking wine with friends, crocheting and generally farting around.

I am capable of more. . .

I am terrified of success. The thought of reaching that dream of a SIX FIGURE income makes my heart skip a beat. And thanks to the   “No holding hands” approach of Tara And Adam – who are leading an amazing course I am participating in Make Your Mark – I want to know why!

People say to me all the time things like “You do so much with so little” and “It’s amazing that while being a full time mum you have time to do so much” even “I just think you are so brave” and my answer is always the same.

“I have nothing to lose at this point”

If I earn the six figures, buy us a new car and hopefully put a deposit on a house with enough space for a veggie patch – well THEN I’ll have lots to lose. And it will still be all on me. So maybe it is the fear of sustainability, or the pressure that success will bring that scares me. And maybe it is just because when I excelled at school (always in academics – never in athletics) I was teased instead of praised. Or maybe it is because I am strong and confident to brush off an insult like it never happened but compliments still make me nervous.

I think it is a combination of all of those things!

So my pledge today is to myself, to my son and to my business.

“I am ready and open to success, I am committed to doing what needs to be done to get there, I am tired of holding myself back and I and I now stepping forward to claim the things in life I desire, and deserve!”

What does this mean for the business?

It means – a clearer vision, a stronger desire to work effectively and efficiently, it means I am going to stick to deadlines and keep appointments and it means if I scared you wont like the outcome I will still give it my all and not hold back out of shy self consciousness.

This is me stepping up!

I will shout from the roof tops my message and if the world doesn’t listen than at least I will have tried.